#i would like to personally thank nicolos for making one of my favourite edits of all time

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F, I, N, and X. And another answer to S if you think of another trope x)

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

“I would like to know one thing.” He finally said, eyes unwavering from his fallen brother. Booker nodded like he had his back to the wall, facing a firing squad. “When, in your resentment of our love, did we become mice to you?”

He flinched away as if Nicky had struck him, or run him through with his sword. But Nicky didn’t want to hurt him, not really. He was seeking answers, leaned against the kitchen counter, wrapped in Joe’s arms.

"What was our crime, Sebastien?" Nicky wanted to know.

“I… I wasn’t thinking. I made a mistake—“

“That is not an answer—“

“Nicky—“ Andy cut in, pushing herself to her feet despite Nile’s sound of displeasure, coming to stand between the two of them.

“It wasn’t supposed to be you!” Booker finally cried, sounding like half a sob. “At first, it was only me I was giving to them, but Copley… he said they needed all of us. In order to help all of these people. I… my son died in agony. His wife suffered a months-long decline.” He tugged his hands through his hair, eyes wide and imploring, flicking back and forth from Nicky to Joe. “I was wrong, Nicky, but I did this from grief and loneliness — never from a place of hate.”

The words felt hollow. Booker’s apologies, explanations, and tears were sucked in by the cavernous vacuum of his rage, quickly burning out to exhaustion and hurt confusion. Nicky was tired.

“Perhaps you didn’t have someone in the way Joe and I have each other, but you have never been alone. You created your loneliness for yourself.

This is the dialogue that started it alllll! This is from Brother of My Heart, and it’s still one of my favorite things I’ve ever written. I recently went through and edited it, so if you haven’t read it, or are looking to reread, you’ll get a remastered version 🥰

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

I write for catharsis a lot. I’m always on the lookout for well written, nuanced takes on mental illness and trauma. It does make me feel guilty, because people act like you’re a bad person for reading/writing this stuff, but as long as you’re treating the material with respect and tagging the piece within an inch of its life, it shouldn’t have to be a guilt-inducing situation.

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

Mmmmm. In theory, I’d love it if someone could go into my brain and take the words out and stuff— the idea of someone else taking my outline and/or finishing one of my WIPs makes my control freak brain start hissing and spitting. But, in a perfect world where I was less me, I’d want someone to finish the final scenes and editing for Color and Light. I fucking love that fic. I want it to be done so badly.

X: A character you enjoy making suffer.

MY NICOLO ❤️ sorry nicky, it’s just so I can make it better 😬

S: (Another) trope I can’t resist!

*chanting* SECRET RELATIONSHIP 🙌 SECRET RELATIONSHIP 🙌 SECRET RELATIONSHIP🙌🙌🙌

Thanks for playing this fun little game ❤️ You’re making tonight feel a lot less terrible. I appreciate you!